Getting ahead of myself

Okey so today I called the doctors office to make another appointment to see how baby leatham is doing. The receptionist mentioned I would be 18 weeks when I come in for the check-up and that they might be able to see the sex of the baby. WHAT? WOW?!!! when did this happen? I'm not that far along am I? Don't get me wrong I don't mind that I'm further along than I was thinking (every pregnant women's dream). But my life is just running away from me. Ive spent all this time being sick and miserable and not enjoying my life.

I'm stuck in the middle on whether or not to find out what we are having. We started off thinking that for sure we wouldn't find out...we have both boys and a girl so really why not wait and be super surprised? Well TEMPTATION snuck in :) All the sudden both me and Eben are thinking maybe it wouldn't be such a big deal to just find out. So here is what we have come up with: we will have the doc check and then write down what the sex of the baby is on a piece of paper. We will then make the decision of whether or not we will be "finding out" or not. I almost think I will be less tempted to look at the paper knowing that it's right at my finger tips..."do I really want to ruin the surprise" kind of deal. We will see I guess. If we just have know then we will wait to look at the paper on Eben's Birthday (January 28th).

As good as it's gonna get

Our family pictures were going to be great this year....everyone was going to be smiling and looking good.

Well that just didn't work. Between me not feeling very good at all, Eben working until it's dark every night, and having to much to do. We just couldn't get around to getting a family picture so one day after church we just went for it and sadly my camera wasn't being to good, it was getting dark, and worst of all the kids were freezing. We took 3 shot and we happily said "that's good enough" and we ran to our warm van. I hate my hair and have since had it cut and shaped better, and my happy little Ebie isn't even smiling. But this is as good as it gets and these are our 2008 family pictures. Next year we will have a new little person in our picture :)

I think the second one is my favorite but I don't know if I should use regular color, black and white, or sepia. So please give your input.

Im not alone

It seems like the more blogs I read and more and more people I talk to feel the same way I do...RUSHED!!!

I am not ready for the holidays to be over. I have alot to get done but most of all I have really really understood the wonder of Jesus' birth. I know how special it is to have a baby and what a wonderful thing it is to fall in love with a special little soul immediately. So it is far beyond my comprehension to think of how special it must have been for Mary to give birth to a super special soul who would someday do the most important thing in world...and the hardship she must have felt knowing that someday he would die for our sins. That moment in time must have felt like..well heaven. It makes me very proud of her and her strength and I know how special her and Joseph must have been for Heavenly Father to choose them to raise his son.

I have always loved Christmas. I love the snow (which we actually have alot of...yippy) the lights, the wonderful feeling you have around the holidays. It's all just a wonderful thing and I'm NOT ready for it all to be done.

I love Love Love the Christmas Holiday and feel so blessed and happy this year.

Sisterly love

I always wanted a sister, which I do but she is 10 years younger than me and is somehow living on a different planet called "planet teenager". I love her to pieces and have become more close to her over the last few years but realistically I feel more like a mom to her than a sister. I am blessed with wonderful sister-in-laws who I can easily talk to and hang out with. There is one of my sister-in-laws that fits in the "favorite" category though. That's my sister-in-law Signe. Her and I do all the things that I always wanted to do with my sister when I grew up. I love to get together with her, we visit, the kids run a muck and we always find something to make (we sew alot). I feel like I can tell her anything and I think she feels the same way.

I am also very inspired by the way she just gets things done...she's not really afraid of anything.

Tonight we cut out little cowboy chaps for our boys for Christmas, we laughed and had a great time and as I left I felt very grateful...and realized how much Signe means to me and how much she reminds me of a "sister" it made me more aware of how much it means to have her in my life and in my family.

This picture is from a few years ago on my birthday. Marie, Sarah, me, and Signe

Dazed and Confused

I don't know where my head is at these days? I have been SO excited for Christmas time to come around and now that it's here it's just flying by. I'm still hard at work making homemade gifts for my kids and family. I did get most of my real shopping done and I am finally on the last stretch of decorating my house.

That might sound like I'm on the right path but I wanted all of that stuff done before December so I could just sit back and enjoy the month of December. Doing crafts with the kids, teaching them everyday the meaning of Christmas and all those other fun things we like to do for Christmas.

I don't know everything just seems to be going way to fast and before you know it Christmas will be done and gone...and I'm NOT ready for that.

I do have to say I am very grateful for our snowfall yesterday. I love snow in December...and only in December I hate it any other month...but Christmas time needs snow.

I hope to get some new pictures up and I REALLLY hope I get my family pictures done soon.

Joseph B. Wirthlin passes away

He passed away peacefully in his own bed and that to me is the best thing in the world...everyone should be so lucky.

I have great respect for Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin, I looked forward to his talks because he reminded me of a wise old turtle. His talks were simple and to the point. He will be missed but I am very happy for him.

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