Friday, May 28, 2010

5/18/2010

Was the day my little sweetpea left my tummy.

People have alot of different views on what a miscarriage is and also if a baby is a "baby" before it is born full term. I feel like I had a sweet little baby girl(she looked like a girl but it could have been a boy who wasn't developed yet) and I miss her and I think she with heavenly father. I think that tiny little body that I held was her earthly body. I am not a expert nor do I want anyone opinion. That's just the way I feel.

We buried our little girl in a spot picked out by her brother's(Kamryn told me he would know where to dig a hole if he saw some flowers by a little rock) in the mountains. They took it all really hard but being able to bury her and have an ending helped.

6 comments:

Michelle said...

Crystal it is so hard and you know I am here for you. I am so sorry you have to feel this pain. It is not fair! It will be 5 months since we said goodbye to our sweet little angel this Saturday. YOu are so strong and you will get through this. I love you mamma!!!

Signe said...

That was such a sweet thing to do with your family. That's just great to come together after something so sad.

Erin Shakespear said...

Oh, I'm so sorry, Crystal. I can't imagine how hard this must be. I wish I was around to give you a big hug. :)

Caitie said...

Beautiful. How wonderful that she is in such a happy place.

Julie S said...

I love you Crystal.
This is so sweet and tender.
I'm so sorry that this happened, but am inspired by your actions.

the remkes family said...

I think that is so sweet what you did for her. And i think it help for you and the kids. I believe you will raise her someday:)YOu are a strong and wonderful person!